I have to say from the start, this is not an easy book to read. It tugs at heart strings. It hollows out the chest, and leaves an empty feeling behind. All I wanted to do throughout the entire book was save Nikki. If you are sensitive to abuse, especially child abuse and sexual abuse, please be aware this book does contain moments of all of the above.
Nikki, a fourteen year old living in the ghetto in St. Louis, is looking for a reason in life. Her mama is an alcoholic who is never home. She has been uprooted from a nice life in Washington, to living with her grandma, Aunt TeeTee who is a crackhead, Uncle Lee, who is a jerk, which you will see when you read, and cousins. Of the cousins, Meechie is her best friend. Together, both are in need of a stable home life and parents who care.
Nikki's mama, Clarene, never gives Nikki, nor anyone else, answers. She constantly tells everyone to stay out of her business. And to Nikki, it is not only to stay out of her business, but to not ask her any questions. Clarene has a difficult time staying in relationships, and at the end of each one, blames Nikki for it failing. At times it is only in words and threats, other times it is with her hand.
All Nikki wants is her mother's love, her mother to care, to stay home, to show her daughter the attention she craves, but whole heartedly deserves. But, unfortunately, the quest to that goal is not an easy one. If she even meets the goal.
Throughout the story, Grandma is Nikki's guiding light. She is the mother figure most of the time. Grandma asks Nikki to be patient, to allow her mama time to figure things out. Nikki has a hard time understanding this. But she desperately tries to be strong, hiding all the hurt, fighting back all the tears.
From one failed relationship to the next, Nikki is moved around frequently with her mama, only to have the heartache hit even more. Then Nikki's sister, Sissy, comes for a visit, and Nikki has high hopes of things being better. Does heartache strike again? You betcha.
Sissy then sees the life Nikki has been living, and wants to go back home to her dad. Nikki pleads to go with her. But that pleading doesn't come easy, nor does the result of being caught in planning her way out.
From her mama, to Grandma's secrets, to Meechie not understanding, though understanding all too well at the same time, to the nightmare worst night of Nikki's life right as she was thinking she had found her freedom - Nikki's life is a disaster, but never by her own actions. In the end when Mama promises Nikki the world, swears at being clean and finding Jesus, but can Nikki trust her? Or can she continue living in the party-type-house she has been in? Little Miss nobody needs to become Little Miss Somebody, to someone.
I needed to take Nikki in my arms and hug her and love her and show her how a mother truly loves and cares so many times, I lost count. It's so heartbreaking to read her story, especially knowing it was based on a true story. My heart goes out to Nikki!
**I received an ARC of Little Miss Somebody to read for an honest, unbiased review**
Genres: Contemporary, Young Adult
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Based on a true story
Fourteen-year-old Nikki is forced to leave her whole world behind when her mother makes an impulsive move to Missouri. Once in the heart of Saint Louis, her mother begins a vicious cycle of abuse and abandonment, leaving Nikki to fend for herself at her grandmother’s house, amidst her mother’s drug addicted siblings.
Humiliated, lacking resources, and feeling more than ever like a burden, Nikki decides to take matters into her own hands—when she embarks on a journey to find her father, a missing piece to the puzzle of her life. Along the way she unravels more pain and layers of family abuse, causing her to want to give up.
But she won’t give up. Not yet. Not Nikki. Not until she finds what she’s looking for. But, will Nikki find the love she desperately needs?
After enduring years of trauma and struggling with depression and PTSD, Christy Lynn Abram embarked on a journey to self-healing using holistic wellness as her guide. Now, as an Expressive Writing Coach and author, she teaches others how to love themselves healthy.
Christy is trained in eight healing modalities, including: a Reiki master, EFT practitioner, reflexologist, massage therapist, and a crystal healer, all of which aided in her discovery of how to heal herself naturally. These life-changing skills also served as the foundation to enhancing her gift as an intuitive healer. She has been recognized for her knowledge of the chakra system (by best-selling author of the Chakra Bible, Patricia Mercier), gemstone healing, and energy medicine. She also contributes to several online publications on the subject of holistic healing and offers individual coaching, e-courses, and workshops all designed to assist and encourage others on their journey toward a better, fuller life. Christy also loves to use her gift of writing to help others.
In her book Chakra Wellness: 7 Ways to Renew the Total she dives into the seven chakra centers from a mind-body-soul perspective. Readers learn how to discern key issues, heal imbalances, and maintain energetic barriers to eliminate stress and increase their overall well-being.
In her emotional novel, Little Miss Somebody, Christy wears her heart on her sleeve and delivers a poignant tale of love and sacrifice. Based on a true story, Little Miss Somebody will be released in July 2015.
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